Bareword
Same Day Test

10.18am

I think often that making decisions can be more difficult than living with their consequences. However this is not true this morning. I wrestle with my conscience for all of ninety seconds before deciding not to go to work. Sure, it would occupy my mind. But not completely. I’d still be worried about the result and I’d also be miserable. Plus I’d have to explain why I wanted to leave early enough to get to the hospital for the result.

I think briefly about calling in sick, but reject the idea. Dave Talbot, my boss, is a suspicious bastard. I don’t want to tell him the truth and I can’t face making up a convincing lie. Not calling will make things worse tomorrow but either a) I will know I’m positive and it won’t matter any more or b) I will know I’m negative and his wrath will seem very insignificant beside what I’ve avoided.

Whatever I’m going to do I should get away from the hospital door.


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